"a·byss /əˈbɪs/ Show Spelled[uh-bis] Show IPA
–noun
1.a deep, immeasurable space, gulf, or cavity; vast chasm.
2.anything profound, unfathomable, or infinite: the abyss of time.
3.(in ancient cosmogony)
a.the primal chaos before Creation.
b.the infernal regions; hell.
c.a subterranean ocean."
As I read my posts I realize I've been holding back. My true voice doesn't ring out. You can tell when someone holds back, and realizing that has to change is both frightening and freeing, because putting yourself out there for the world to read (so I only have 7 followers...who's counting?) is scary. Up until now, when I've written a post, I have self sensored. My mother says that's a good thing...I'm not so sure...
Think back to all the good writing you've read. The writers that made the greatest impact on your life weren't the ones who held back. They were the ones who ran screaming at the wall. Those that made you laugh when you shouldn't, cry over what you couldn't control, and wish for just a moment that you had thought those same words and feelings just once in your life. In sensoring, you lose authenticity, and although I'm all for civility (most of the time), it's pretty clear to me that for a voice to ring true and clear, and be entertaining, you have to walk the edge just a little bit. So...from now on I'm going to test the waters and speak clearly (not always sensibly, but clearly).
My family and close friends can handle it...they've been listening to it for years, and the rest of the world doesn't really care, so I should be just fine...I promise not to mention names.
Years ago I read a book about people who are "abyss walkers"...those who always walk on the edge...fringe people. That phrase has stuck with me, I have a relational pull toward those words. I'm not entirely convinced that's a bad thing. Just thought I would give you a heads up that things to come may have a slightly different tone. Different, meaning better!
3 comments:
You go girl. I like it. (forwarded the page to my niece who always speaks her mind too.)
Ahhh, the books. It's why I always keep a pencil handy when reading. My books (fiction as well as non) are filled with underlinings, stars, initials,& my own notes. When reading a profound thought...Bingo...a little light explodes in my head.
As a fellow "edge walker", we keep ourselves open to learning new things, accepting new challenges. Not willing to sit back and watch, we want to feel all life has to offer (good and bad...its how we learn and grow)
Wheather controversial OR trivial, say what you feel my friend. And if you second guess yourself, there's always tomorrow. If you can't change your mind, why have one? So stir it up a little and say it LOUD...
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